TABOO TRUTHS

This week will be filled with crazy fun!  My oldest daughter Lindsay turns 21 on Thursday (at 7:18pm to be exact).  My girls and I have been planning the celebration of their 21 year on earth for quite some time.  It was decided that the 3 of us would spend Lindsays’ Birthday in Las Vegas!  So on Wednesday morning….EARLY we are on a flight to the sin city!

When it comes to my girls I am weighted with sentimental emotions and filled with so much love it leaks out most often through tears.  I have decided that my focus during this trip is one of pure fun and creating memories that will forever make us smile.  But for now, give me my moment of reflection…

I can see pictures in my mind of minutes, days and years of Lindsay’s journey through this world.  From the unruly hair she had as a baby, to her first ballet class on to her “green and gold” high school memories.  Far too much to write in one blog.  My reflection will be what she has taught me.

To be witness of the women my girls are becoming is nothing short of miraculous to me.  These beautiful beings came through me and as a young mother I believed as most that it was my job to show them the ways of this earth.  How naive we are…we as parents ARE the students.

Lindsay has taught me the power of saying “I’m sorry”, the importance of traditions, the absolute of trust, the ability to let go yet still be connected and the pure joy of being in the presence of someone you love.  Her vintage soul keeps her tied to the things that she loves and keeps her feet securely on the ground.  Yet there is that breeze of whimsy and chance that shows if your watching. 

Her essence is one of slow to change and unwavering loyalty.  Though we have had our moments as Mothers and Daughters do, she is tirelessly willing to listen and discuss.  She has called me out on issues that were deserved and forgiven me at times that may not have been deserved.  She, like Courtney are my true meaning for breathing oxygen.  I can say with a full heart that I am lucky enough to call her my friend…one of two I cannot live without.  I’ve said to others as a parent you are prepared to love your children, what you don’t expect is to fall in-love with them!  Lindsay has trusted me with secrets and invoke my advice as I never would have my own mother.  And now she has chosen to spend her 21st birthday….a day that is normally consumed by friends and parties with her sister and I.  My girls take my breath away!

If any of you know this creature, Lindsay Catherine Guynn…consider yourself blessed!  For it may not be easy to earn her trust and friendship but the benefits of her being in your life will far out weigh any challenges. 

Me? I do not take her friendship and love lightly.  I will continue to earn her trust and respect…continue to listen and talk…continue to love and count my blessings.  For I as her mother have the unbelievable opportunity to be witness to her step by step experiencing the hardships and joys of this life.  The very happiest of birthdays my Sweetpea!  I love you without limits.  Can’t wait for this week!

What a wonderful weekend!  My girl Courtney flew back in for a short visit and it gave me a chance to breath normally again.  That is until today.  I head back to Richmond, opening my hand and letting my love fly back to Michigan.  I’ve missed her so much!

It is so hard to say goodbye to  both my daughters.  Even for a short time.  I will be driving back to Michigan this coming weekend and will hopefully see both of them, if only for a moment. 

A true passion for my daughters and myself is the Gilmore Girl television show.  It depicts the true connection a positive respectful relationship between a mother and daughter.

I love you Courtney.  My heart aches just to be close to you.  I can’t wait for you to come back.  (You too my Lindsay