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If you are so inclined to be entertained by horoscopes and fortunes, you probably already know it is the year of the Dragon!  My understanding is those of Asian heritage find this news very exciting!  The Dragon is believed to be a very lucky sign.  I read an article about how chinese business men were invading Las Vegas and playing to win feeling the influence of the lucky Dragon.

This excites me for two reasons; the first is I was born in the year of the Dragon!  Second, those born under the sign are predicted to have a very special, lucky and prosperous 2012!  GOOD!  I cannot express with more excitement, relief and hope how badly I am due!   It seems that on a few fronts, luck has not been my companion for a couple years.  I do feel the tides changing and with the independent, innovative, passionate and brave Dragon on my side…it is time!

So my tip for today, embrace what may come!  My personality is one that prefers to plan.  I take the time to examine something before making a decision.  If there is one thing that life has taught me, you can’t always see something coming.  You may plan and prepare, but there may be somethings that are thrown in your path making that impossible!  It isn’t in my nature to embrace what may come, so this tip is for me as much for you!  Maybe what comes is an confirmation that what you want and believe is realized.  Maybe what comes is the wind of change, leading to a path not yet known.  The old saying “the only thing that’s constant is change” holds true.  But there is some change that will knock you on your ass!  You’ll never see it coming.  I think the threads of fate are trying to teach me that I need to relax a bit and embrace what may come!  (Easier said than done!)

So, here’s to all you Dragon’s out there!  And to those who are lucky enough to have a Dragon in your life!  We are not an easy spirit to tame…but well worth the effort.  It is our year!  Time for a little luck and days of prosperity!  Tell me what you have planned for your lucky year?  I have some coming

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Another May 3rd here and gone.  The older one gets, the more one reflects on the vacant and populated slides of ones life.  Evaluating and re-evaluating every decision, relationship and cheesecake slice!  So with vigor and guidance, what can I impart on the passing of another year?

• Eating chocolate!  Often. (With red wine when possible)
• Drink wine in the sun so the glass glistens.
• Take a fucking picture of a Good Hair Day!  (Especially in VA because they are so rare!!!)
• When you wear heels that make your legs look awesome, wear a short skirt!  (Reverse crossing your legs often to bring attention, that is if you have nice legs…which I believe I do )
• Enjoy the little things.  Like French Champagne, jewelry, Mercedes, and Jimmy Choo’s.  (None of which I received)
• Enjoy technology….at times it can make you feel more loved!
• Valuing a sharp lip and eye pencil.
• Appreciating the love of a man. (As the wind may blow)
• Being thankful for the love, admiration, humor and fulfillment of two amazing daughters.
• A Mac computer!!!!
• Sitting in church and actually thinking about your spirituality.
• Waking up without sheet marks on your face.  (That take an hour to soften!)
• The trust of a true friend. (or two!)
• Realizing what the word “home” truly means.
• Laughing at expletives flowing in a movie scene you love! (The Kings Speech….watch it!)
• A “fabio” pose by a cat….his name is Jasper.
• Taking note that two of my top 10 favored and most admired people in this world are my sisters.
• Eating Goldfish.  The whole wheat kind of course!
• Wondering at a mountainous ride.
• Loving the ease of thumb drives.
• Preferring Finger food.
• Feeling content with the recognition of my mother in the mirror.
• Melting when my Dad saying “I love you too” on the phone

Last but not least…..Cheap Champagne!

Never would I believe the chapter my life is in.  Yet here I stand.  Ready to take on another year.  There better be Creme Brulee in the coming days!!!

My children are now gone.  Well, somewhat gone.  I’m so grateful that my youngest is not to far away in Harrisonburg.  But in the “next phase of life” considered…they are gone.  Off pursuing their dreams and aspirations.  How does this make me feel?  Proud, happy, excited and supportive…. for them.  How do I feel?  Lonely, lost, shocked, curious and at times hovering on the abyss of insanity.  Why?

When working through the question “when to have children” on an intellectual level, one thought was recurring.  If I had my children young, I would be in my mid 40’s upon their departure pursing their educational future.  I would have my life back!  Mine…thinking at the young age of 23 I would certainly conceive what that life would be once I reached the wisdom of 40.  Well, here I am.  Free!  No children to attend to and launching a new business.  Why is it I feel less insightful that expected?

I find myself during those frequent timeframes where there is no plan laid out for me, thinking, “what do I do?”  This is not a new revelation.  When my oldest left for college and my youngest was beginning high school, the query crossed my mind.  I began to think of what passions did I have before having my girls?  That took me back to high school.  Being engaged at 19 and married by 21 didn’t leave me much time to develop additional interests or learn more about who I was.  (I’m sure that attributed to my failure in the marriage.)  There were two passions I pursued, art and music.  I played the trumpet during high school.  My instrument was a strong and wonderful brass beauty that admittedly I played quite well.  But I always wanted a silver trumpet!  Hello eBay!  The art?  My girls had given me a few gifts over the years supplying me with the necessary sketchbooks and charcoal pencils to fulfill that lost dream.  Have I touched either?  No…why?

I spent so much time filling myself to the limit with motherhood.  I love everything about it, even the challenging moments.  I keep reaching back, wanting that warm fix.  I’ve slowly realized that my girls are going nowhere.  I am as much a part of them as they are of me.  When I reach for something that is just for me, it isn’t stretching in the opposite direction of them.  It’s time!  Time to etch out that hour to sit and sketch!  Time to look for a tutor for my silver beauty.  And maybe, just maybe…the minutes that span between the times spent with my two best friends will be filled with color and a melody!